September 2012
1 post
I am starting to wonder who am I? Where do I belong and why am I here? What do I want? I ask myself these questions all the time. When I try to come up with a logical answer I can not. I can not answer these questions because I do not know. I am 22 years old and I should know these answers. I am lost! I keep doing what everyone expects me to do. If everyone knew what was on my mind lately they...
December 2011
1 post
Sometimes I do not understand why I actually care. I am to the point to where I do not care about some people because they do not care about me. Sometimes I feel so alone in this world. When I am not with the people that care about me and love me. Other times I feel like it is me against the world and Im falling fast and no one is there to catch me. Im afraid that if I fall I will not be able to...
November 2011
6 posts
Wow
Wow Im suppose to respect you but yet you can not even treat me with damn respect. No asking you just tell me. Then people wonder why the hell I dont like talking much anymore and I just want to stay by myself. You would rather talk to your guy friend. Its like Im not even here. You will stop our convo for him. I am a person and I have damn feelings too. Wait I forgot that you do not care. Im just...
Thinking
Thinking can be a slightly scary thing. But Idk what im suppose to do. Im trying to think my way through the situation but I feel like Im failing at it. Seems like everything is just coming all at once. Im to the point to where I do not want to be bothered. Im thinking Im tired of being this strong person for everyone else. Im tired of being the strong person in general. But if Im not then who? I...
sigh
I really do not know what to do anymore. You make me feel like a complete idiot and you really do not care. You think it is ok to treat us like shit. I just want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a bit. If I do not return do not worry i will eventually come back. He keeps telling me not to quit that I can do this. Why do I almost believe him? He told me not to give up with all the effort...
“When someone tells you to be yourself you ask them which one. Because we spend...”
I know what it takes, but sometime I think that I can not do it. Sometimes I think why the hell am I still here? But then I remember I do not want to end up like them. I have the greatest support group, but sometimes that does not help make things better. I see your little smile and it lights my world up and I remember I can do this no matter how I feel. Im doing this for me not for anyone else.
